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December 31, 2012 · filed under life

2012: double my wishes came true

Previously: 2011, 2010

1. What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?

Traveled to Costa Rica, Norway, and Iceland. Threw a surprise party. Quit a job without having a new job lined up. Oh yeah, I never told you guys about this, but I got to meet the President and shake his hand. We even had a brief moment of conversation (which I am SURE he remembers, ha).

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I started the year in a very dark place. My resolution was to have patience, perseverance, and inner peace. I also wanted to focus living my life and not comparing it so much to anyone else’s life.

That those were my resolutions show where I was emotionally one year ago. I’m not even sure how I can measure or evaluate if I did those things, but I think resolving to change my attitude at the time probably helped during a hard time.

For 2013 my goals are to:

  • Keep blogging. I’ll have to find my voice as a new mom, but I really want to keep documenting my life here.
  • Learn Lightroom and take and edit good photos.
  • Go on lots of walks with the kiddos and get my body to a better, fitter place. Also, find time to do something healthy for myself without the boys. Perhaps yoga again?
  • Keep breastfeeding as long as I can.
  • Embrace my new life as a stay at home mom. And when it’s time to go back to work, embrace that as well.
  • Do more nice things for other people. I feel like I’ve been on the receiving end for awhile now and it’s time to pay it forward.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Have you met Teddy and Holden? You know, I wrote up a birth story and I’ve never edited it or posted it. The thing is, their birth kind of sucked. It happened weeks before it was scheduled, the epidural took at least four pokes, I barfed my guts out on the operating table, the babies were whisked off to the NICU and I didn’t get to meet them until 15 hours later, and I had to go on magnesium IV drip awfulness for pre-eclampsia. But you know what? I don’t care. Because I left the hospital with two alive babies and it doesn’t really matter to me how they got here.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No, thankfully.

5. What countries did you visit?

We went to Costa Rica, Norway, and Iceland. The trips were really amazing in totally different ways. Costa Rica was healing and relaxing and quiet. Norway was so beautiful and such a treat to spend a week with family. Iceland was interesting and different than anywhere I’ve been before.

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you didn’t have in 2012?

Last year I said I wanted a living, breathing, cuddly baby. And I got two of them. And the gratefulness engulfs me.

I also wished for a vacation and got two of them. Perhaps I should be careful what I wish for in 2013, for I might get double.

I’m scared to say this one out loud, because I’m not 100% set on it (nor is my spouse), but what I would like to have in 2013 to move to Denver to be closer to my family.

7. What dates from 2012 will be etched upon your memory, and why?

Here are three. August 22nd — Miller’s first birthday. And of course November 7th, the boys’ birthday.

8. What was your biggest achievement of this year?

Throwing Andrew a really awesome surprise party. Growing twins to a 36 week delivery. Breastfeeding them for nearly 8 weeks now.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Sometimes I wish I could have carried the twins to full term. I know it would have made breastfeeding easier. But I couldn’t exactly will myself not to get pre-eclampsia, I suppose.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

The end of pregnancy was pretty awful — the swelling and the PUPPP rash and the raw, stretched skin and the constant hip/groin/everywhere pain. But thankfully, nothing that wasn’t cured upon delivery.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

A really fantastic chair for the nursery. A ton of fertility drugs. A week’s rent for a house in Costa Rica. A NEW CAR!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

The “village” that has taken care of us since the babies were born.

The friends and family who flew out to spend time with us (doing diapers, feedings, the nitty gritty). Friends who have babysat so we can get away for a few hours. Friends and strangers who brought us so many meals we basically haven’t cooked since October. Friends who gave us so many hand-me-downs that I haven’t bought any clothes for the boys yet. Friends and friends-of-friends who listened to my breastfeeding woes and offered thoughtful and researched advice and encouragement. Family and friends and neighbors who bought us so many gifts and baby items that there is truly nothing we need and don’t have.

And of course, my mother. I mentioned she is up for sainthood, right? She took me to Wicked in NYC this spring. She listened to my many pregnancy anxieties and complaints. She got on the first plane out of town once my C-section was put in motion. She stayed for three weeks, doing overnight feeding duty with me every other night. And she’s coming back to do it all again.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Old white men who like to preach about freedom and liberty but also like to control via the government what choices women can make for themselves.

14. Where did most of your money go?

The car was by far the most expensive thing we bought. And now, diapers. Holy sheesh, the diapers.

15. What did you get really excited about?

The first thing that really made me happy in 2012 was Andrew’s party. It was the beginning of good things for me after about six months of real despair. In March I got pregnant. In April, June, and July, we took vacations. In May we found out the babies were boys.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012?

Call Me Maybe. Don’t tell him I told you but my husband was obsessed with that song.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?

Much happier.
Not really thinner or fatter but much differently shaped, if that makes sense.
Richer, but about to embark on life with one income.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Nice things for other people. Keeping to a monthly budget. Yoga. (I basically stopped when I got pregnant.)

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Laying in bed at night reading my iPhone.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

We’ve been in Delaware with my in-laws all week. It’s been quiet and just perfect for my endless hours of feeding and cuddling babies while other people feed and take care of me.

21. Did you fall in love in 2012?

With Teddy and Holden, and with my husband as a new dad. He is so good at it already. We celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary by visiting the babies in the NICU (which is to say we didn’t celebrate at all, but for a pretty darn good reason).

22. What was your favorite TV program?

Homeland. I really need Season 2 to come out soon, because I’ve basically been walking around ready to cover my eyes/ears at any moment in case of spoilers. This is harder than it sounds, I swear!

New Girl. Ellen.

Also, Friday Night Lights and The Good Wife on DVD.

23. What was the best book you read?

Oh jeez, I can’t remember what I read, other than about seven books on breastfeeding. And, did I mention that I skipped all the chapters on breastfeeding in the NICU? Yeah, that was pretty dumb of me.

24. What was your greatest musical discovery?

That my husband can stream Pandora/his iTunes on our speaker, and therefore take over as family DJ so I never have to pay attention to or download music again!

25. What did you want and get?

A baby, times two, which healed my broken heart.

26. What did you want and not get?

Almost nothing. My life is rich and full beyond my imagination, truly. The only thing I wish for more of is time with family and friends who live far away.

Actually, that’s not totally true. I wish for happiness for a few people in my life who could use an extra dose of it right now.

27. What was your favorite film of 2012?

I’m assuming it will be Les Mis. But they had to go and make it almost three hours long, so I haven’t actually seen it yet. Tragic!

28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 31 this year, and I can’t remember what I did for my birthday. We left for Norway just a few days later, which was the real highlight of the summer.

29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

As I mentioned above, there are a few people in my life who had hard times this year. I wish it hadn’t been that way for them, and I hope for better things in 2013.

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept of 2012?

Maternity jeans, cardigans, yoga pants, knit shirts, and since November 7th, toplessness at least 75% of the time. ; )

31. What kept you sane?

Same as last year: My mom, dad, sisters, cousin, friends, husband, gchat, and iced coffee. This year I’ll add bagels to the list because I think I ate one every day that I was pregnant.

32. What political issue stirred you the most?

See #13

33. Who did you miss?

My sweet baby Miller.

34. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.

I appreciate my mom in a new way since becoming a mom.

35. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high
There’s a land that I heard of once in a lullaby

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

36. Bonus Question: What else will always remind you of 2012?

Instagram, Twitter (sure, I was on it before, but this year it seems like my twitter community really grew), coming up with names for the twins, going to NYC with my mom and sister 15 years later.


If you fill out one of these, please leave a link in the comments so I can come over and read it! xoxo



  1. Kandi
    December 31, 2012 1:00 pm

    What a great year you’ve had!
    I didn’t answer these questions but I did a yearly review in pictures if you want to check it out.

  2. Cady
    December 31, 2012 1:51 pm

    What a great year after the heartache of losing Miller. I posted mine as well:

    Happy New Year!

  3. Janssen
    December 31, 2012 3:50 pm

    The biggest difference about a second baby is that I no longer had to completely undress to nurse. It’s been like a miracle.

    Also, the three hour length of Les Mis is why I did not go and see it with all of Bart’s family last week. THAT IS TOO LONG!

    I am just so so so happy for you.

  4. Michelle
    December 31, 2012 5:27 pm

    Your year turned out to be so amazing. Those sweet boys–oh my. I could just squeeze them.

    My year in review is here:

  5. jen
    December 31, 2012 7:50 pm

    I put mine up this morning:

    I love your answers and I am so so happy for you guys! I am glad that you’re planning to continue writing the blog as you adapt to motherhood and all that entails. It will be nice to see how things change and if anything stays the same.

    Happy New Year!!

  6. Jane
    December 31, 2012 11:56 pm

    So happy that you had such a great year! Happy 2013!

  7. Melissa
    January 1, 2013 9:23 pm

    I love to see that you had such a wonderful year following such a great loss!

    I stole this for my blog! :)

  8. Carley
    January 1, 2013 10:30 pm

    I love your year! I’ve followed so long as a lurker and am just so happy for you! I’ve filled this out again this year…not too interesting, but it’s there!

  9. Sara
    January 2, 2013 10:17 am

    I’m so happy that 2012 was such a positive year for you. Many blessings to you and your husband and your beautiful little boys in 2013!

  10. RA
    January 2, 2013 12:11 pm

    I loved reading your responses this year, and even more so after going back to last year’s and seeing the contrast. Love you guys!

    Here’s mine:

  11. Jessica
    January 3, 2013 12:45 pm

    Hi Janet! Love your blog. I’m adding it to my blog roll so I don’t forget to check it out. Also you just inspired me to go back to regular updates with my blog. It’s been neglected because life is busy, but I want keep up with it because it’s my version of a baby book for the kids :)

  12. katelin
    January 4, 2013 6:37 pm

    it’s so fun to look back on the year like this, i love it. and just so happy for you and andrew so much and your little family of four. the best way to start the new year!

  13. Mary Frances
    January 5, 2013 9:38 am

    I am so happy for you, Janet. The twins are adorable, and life seems so full for you right now. Also, if you ever want to talk breastfeeding/pumping, please feel free to email me. It was basically all I talked about last year (read: my colleagues at work know WAY too much about my boobs).

    And here’s my survey!

  14. Emily
    January 6, 2013 10:17 pm

    What an awesome post–and terrific year you’ve had. Wow. Your babies really are double the blessing/dream come true.

    I’m inspired to write my own recap. The year suddenly seems very fuzzy…

  15. Tara
    January 7, 2013 10:40 am

    Good luck with your goals! I also hope to do more walking with the twins come spring or at least once it’s warmer and once I’m heeled from the c-section I’m going to join a yoga studio too :) Hopefully I can go twice a week.